Surprised.

R.E.M. was not a huge disappointment. At times they really rocked, as a matter of fact. But I have to wonder how long Peter and Mike M. are going to be satisfied being Stipe's backup band.

Waffles, I was in L.A. five days after the 94 Nothridge quake. You are right - people were very much on edge. I was at a Bar Mitzvah reception and at one point the band was playing a song that featured a lot of base. That caused the floor to vibrate a lot and a number of people were looking at each other and asking whether it was the band or an aftershock. I think about earthquakes too. I work on the 23rd floor of an office building built in the late 50's before people around here did much thinking about the fact that there is a massive fault (the New Madrid Fault) about 160 miles from here. Last time the fault let one rip (in the late 1800's) it leveled buildings in St. Louis and shook the ground as far away as Virginia.

NPR says the death toll in Turkey is projected to hit 14,000 when all is said and done. God help those people.

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missin' Danipoo too, and waiting for a pic of the youngin's dairy aire.

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Wondering why I said "base" when I clearly meant "bass."

Odd, speling is usually not one of my problems.

We haven't had cable television in six years. Who in the heck is David Blaine? TV evangelist?

Need to do a newsletter today, shouldn't be here at all. Needed to get on the 'net to find quotes for it though, had to visit.

I can,t spell,but I am not animal,I am a human bean.

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Messing around with Alladvantage.com. hoping to make a few bucks doing nothing. Apparently I have to find lots of other people and tell them about it and blah blah blah or I'll max out at some monthly limit.

well, alright. If anyone out there wants to join, say BAX-376 referred ya.

No, I don't expect anyone to do it. Get paid a few bucks to have ads flashed at you continuously while surfing? WEll, I guess that's normal surfing. I dunno. They're all animated eww.

I wonder if it's working.

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wondering if ace of base is spelled "ace of BASE" or "ace of BASS". and wondering if the band LIVE was originally called LIVE... you know, living instead of alive. i don't know.

Got the job! Got the job!

I'm really happy. 20 hrs a week, all during the boy's school time, at higher pay than the last job. In a Library...paid to hang out in a Library. I'm jazzed.

The district office already has plans to take advantage of my artistic skills by having me do the new Unified School District logo. That's OK, I'm used to being shafted for my artwork.

50 Cedric Avenue.

much respect.

reliving happytime memories. I'm thrilled.

experiencing that dissociation of coming home after travelling and being happy to have arrived and to have a familiar bed to crawl into but feeling not totally there. Looking at my stuff and recognizing it as my stuff, but being slightly detached from it all, as if it were someone else's stuff that resembles mine, found at an estate sale...

however, being glad my computer is still here and is working

sleep

nelly, tell us about meeting mark.


don't make us beg.

Took the two doggies for their walk, it is only 6:30am, and it's going to be a scorcher.

Hubby wanted to defrost the freezer. To heck with that! I want to float down the river. This is it, the last day of run-around-the-house-neked-while-I-can day.

she's met him before, my sweet sarah. maybe she'll tell us anyhow.

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admiring the sleek new look. I'm working on a sleek new look as well.

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being wonderfully confused and ignoring everything and everyone else as best as i can

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Congrats Lawanda on your job!!

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majorly freaking out, waiting until the bank's computers are "back up" so i can find out why i'm suddenly missing $2000.00

fuck

fuck






fuck.

damn.

i just found a whole bottle of hydrocodone in my medicine cabinet. i completely forgot i had that in there.

reminds me of that rainy day in college when i was rummaging through the storage area connected to my apartment. i found all sorts of random shit in that little room, but the only thing that really caught my attention were a pair of speakers tucked away in the corner. after dragging them out into the light for closer inspection, i got all pumped up because i recognized them as being vintage acoustic research speakers, probably from the early 70's: real wood cabinets with personality and big fat woofers that produce rich, warm sound.
anyway, the excitement didn't last long. after removing the grills i saw that they were just empty cabinets; both woofers were missing.
for whatever reason, i stuck my hand through the hole where the woofer should have been and felt around.
ended up pulling out a baggie filled with at least 1/2 to 3/4 ounces of very old, very dry, but very green kaya.
the other speaker cabinet had about an 1/8th of shrooms and 5 hits of acid.
pladow.
the acid ended up being no good. i gave the shrooms away to my girlfriends' jonesing roommate, and kept the pot for myself.
turned out to be damn good smoke for being anywhere from 4 to 20 to god knows how many years old.
i skipped all my classes to spend the afternoon smoking vintage pot, watching old movies and having sex with A., who is to this day the only woman i ever really loved.
that kind of serendipity doesn't happen very often these days, but it seemed to come in abundance back then.

sometimes i wish i was 21 again.

luckily, right now isn't one of those times.

i'm gonna pop a couple hydrocodone and go to sleep.

good luck.

all is well. the computers are "back up" and all of my money is exactly where it ought to be.


lesson: keep better records in case bank fucks me over.


destination: back to pub to celebrate. yahoo!

starting to wake up, and wondering how soon i'll go back to semiconscious autopilot mode after all the exitement of the past week
Sarah, what can i say, out of this blur. Mark Thomas was Mark Thomas. It was good to have the chance see him. He was wearing long pants instead of shorts this time, and of course the facial hair. Would this cause me to take him more seriously than before?

Legs. Pianos vs. Real Estate. Knoxville preachers. signal confusion... CD's; napkins. Twiggy. a gleam. wistfulness. regret. should have kept the prosciutto.

Canned two quarts of tomatoes this morning, froze six anaheim peppers.

The boys are going to be back today. I'm excited. Uh, it might be a good idea to at least vacuum the house they don't realize we did NOTHING while they were gone.

nibbling chinese food at dawn w/ a stripper.

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Wondering if Jimbo got any at that party,and did he get high?

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having hard time opening my eyes this morning, they hurt...like swine, i abused narcotics last night..........darvocet's in my case....lil pink happy things...........she got in that cab and headed for NYC this morning as well.........she's always gone....glad i started school last week...keeps my mind of her and the magical fantastical bootay.....

telling J that the party wasn't til this coming Friday, but unfortunately it has been cancelled. Now I have to get high and laid somewhere else.

Grrrrr.

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A highway patrolman pulled alongside a speeding car on the freeway.
Glancing at the car, he was astounded to see that the blonde behind the wheel was knitting!
The trooper cranked down his window and yelled to the driver, "PULL OVER!"


"NO!" the blonde yelled back, "SCARF!"

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I'm AT my job. Gotta love it. Moved some computers, made a form, lived in chaos.

Now, I applied for the Special Ed. Aide, was considered for the Library Aide, but I officially got hired as the Technology Aide. So I hang out in the computer lab, and get to work closely with LCSC. My freind Danielle just happens to be the head person here. On the board of directors for the Adult Learning Center with me too.

getting ready to do my aerobics. M dad stopped by again last night, on his way back home from St. Louis. Ate at Culver's which has good frozen custard.

I had wet feet all day, not the first time for it. I'm becoming adept at knowing where to look for archaeological features of the context I am studying by seeing where the lilacs, tiger liles and walnut trees are.

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Waiting for 5 o clock to roll around so I can go home and take a good refreshing nap. This morning my eyes wouldn't open up properly for 2 hours.

I WAS IRCing with Christop.
Damnit.

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sharpening my 12" rambo knife.

"i remember suddenly getting a tremendous headache"

-direct qoute from a man who was stabbed in the head with a 10" hunting knife.

all the way up to the hilt.

the incident won him a spot in the guinness book of world records for having the largest object removed from any human's noggin.

he sincerely hopes that no one will attempt to break his record.

fat chance, buddy.

i'm going for gold.

She-bop.

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Sitting here with this song by Ben Folds Five stuck in my head, it's beautiful too, it's all melodic and .. beautifully sad.. They hold my hand and tell me to pull through, I hear a voice that says dear he probly can't hear you. I'm coming up for air.

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reach out
touch faith

thinking now that maybe some of the shrubbery will survive this summer, now that it's rained all everloving day long. It's now pouring to beat the band.

:-)

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Thinking about Jim.
In my head, I call him PJB.
Today, I had to force myself to realize that this is not some sort of Peanut Butter & Jelly acronym, that in fact it would be Peanut Jelly & Butter.

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Nice day at work, a little frustrating. I couldn't get Netscape to load on their network properly. I'll look at it again tomorrow when I'm fresh. More on the hapless tech aide on another thread.

It's funny how the busier you are, the more you can get done. When the boys were gone, not much happened around here. Now that I'm working, boys are back, I'm in full swing again.

getting ready to go surfing. full moon tonight.


i need this.

watching the MTV now that i've stuck the cable thing in the back of the VCR and all of a sudden got 88 channels of shit to choose from without dropping a dime.

MTV.

haven't tuned into that useless shit in about 2 years, and i'm surprised to see that kurt loder is still doing the news.

either that man is on serious drugs or he's got more patience than jesus on a vibrating cross.

i'm thinking it's gotta be the drugs.

no sober motherloder could ever relate "news" about kid rock with a straight face.

poor bastard.

god help all ye who be chained to the wack.

push me off the deep edge so i can drown in the sea of inebriation.

see ya at the bottom.

Getting my files ready for this morning's Bankruptcy Court docket and trying to figure out why the fuck the maintenence staff in my office buildng finds it necessary to jackhammer at quarter to seven in the Goddammn morning!

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Getting my files ready for this morning's Bankruptcy Court docket and trying to figure out why the fuck the maintenence staff in my office buildng finds it necessary to jackhammer at quarter to seven in the Goddammn morning!

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reading an entire Insane Clown Posse cd booklet. Front to back, cover to cover. Laugh if you must.
you can't even imagine how bored I am.






hey, Slash is on here......

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wondering if any lasting love affairs have developed because of by-chance meeting on sorabji. Mark the tacit matchmaker?

Just woke up from an accidental 2 hour couch nap with a crick in my neck. Very disoriented.

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Whew! What a day. Worked, canned three quarts of tomatoes, defrosting the fridge right now. Hotter than heck right now.

The kids at the high school are a nice bunch. At least they are polite to me.

just off work, after finally getting the danged yearly statistical spreadsheet summary thing bashed into some kind of shape. eating an enchilada. just listened to "Georgia Lee" in the car. I like that unprepared piano sound. It reminds me of the pink one they bought for me when I was a child. that cd was one of the major themes in "Soundtrack to my vacation", which i should post somewhere...

Getting ready to pack for school tomorrow, which I should have done earlier this week, but I *am* the reigning queen of procrastination and must uphold my standards................and I'm staring at Vanilla Ice's ass.

My bro. has a poster of the Iceman on his wall above this monitor (strictly for laughs, you understand) and the man is squatting in the photo and my eye keeps ending up on his gluteal profile. And then my stomach keeps trying to purge its contents.

I must escape now.

watching the clock.

I love Fridays.

What the heck is the chorus to Scar Tissue? Anybody...?

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I have no idea but it sure as hell sounds like "With the Burma Shave it's a lonely room."

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"universal sodomy: Uii002/Uii128ARP/Boodoo"
"cosmic buggery: Uii010/0011"
"blindswine's lament: Mult001/Uii006/Pi004"
"porcinity : ? "

man, i'm never gonna be able to get that off the wall.

well, it's nearly 3:45 am here in honolulu and i decided to get out of bed and do something since i wasn't sleeping anyway. all the usual sleeping tricks didn't seem to work this time... vicodin, wine, aspirin, milk (one at a time, in that order, throughout the night), and sleeping with my head at the foot of the bed. i'm still wide awake. and as you know, i don't even drink milk.

maybe it's the full moon, sometimes that happens.
a moon like this, i should be out camping at Makua beach or surfing.

i'm playing my favorite Nina Simone CD on my cd-rom drive, realizing that even though my new speakers really suck, Nina still sounds as sweet and sultry as ever. it's comforting.


since my boss returned home safely from Istanbul, my days at the office have been considerably busier. it's just as well, i enjoy being busy. but now I'm under a crunch to get a significant portion of my new project done before i leave for (another) vacation in mid September. i'll be working very long days for the next month. it's good though... it'll keep my mind off other things.


i'm not sure if I will consider this trip back to Michigan in September a real vacation. in some ways it will be as stressful as my job. i haven't been back in over four years. i haven't seen my mother since i visited her and her husband when they were living in Melbourne nearly two years ago. my step sister is getting married and my presence was requested. it was as good of an excuse as any to make the pilgrimage back to what is now just a vague memory of the mess of my past. i'll make sure to see what few friends are left there, as well as visit family as much as possible, but it won't be all fun and games. going back never is.


yeah. but it's good to go back now and then. it'll be a good reminder of how far i've come and how great my life has become.


it'll also be fun to get back on Detroit highways, where people really know how to drive.

been a while, but always nice to come back. I think I miss swine's diatribes the most. Have to respect someone who can get as emotional over music gear as I can. Plus, I must respect the find of age old pot in a speaker cabinet...

mmm. it's a friday, just finishing an all-night work session buzz, and there's a fatty waiting for me on the homefront. And back at sorabji there are still some familiar faces.

sometimes life *is* as simple as it seems.

on hold, seemingly forever at times. Why do people think they can put you on hold forever?

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With the birds I share this lonely-uh view.

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GETTING A LITTLE FREAKED when i check my hit tracker on my website and see someone from a 'US Govt" domain hits my site......just a little paranoid.........it's pay day and the car is gassed nd oiled...VEGAS HERE I COME BABAYY!!

Another mystery solved. Thanks for clearing that up, Margret. I was also thinking it could have been "With the burden shed it's a lonely view."

Waffles - Safe travels to Sin City for you my man. Las Vegas, just the thought reminds me of some great Lenny Bruce routines.

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ok...NOW I am REALLY paranoid......I checked my website tracker and I see two hits from the FCC. Not that anything on mysite is wrong or illegal, but it still makes me alittle paranoid...................jsut remembereing that lil executive orderClinton issued....FUCK

very happy with his WaffleArt. Thanks Waffles! You rock, man!

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hot. And well stocked from a day of shopping. Two week's worth in the pantry and enough odds & ends for a good long hike into the mountains.

I haven't "gone back" since 1991, even when my father died last year. I probably should go just one more time to let the young 'uns see what they're missing since dad moved away from the rat race.

I'm anxiously and somewhat nervously awaiting a call for an interview for a new job. It could happen next week. Otherwise it'll have to wait till after vacation.

It's a calculated risk: swapping a very lucrative job with decent hours for one that pays $10K less and has less favorable hours.

I'd also be swapping a career of battling pin-headed chickenshit bureaucrats every day for one that involves working outdoors, educating the public and staying out of the politics. Hmm... tough call.

Waffle: Have they started going thru your garbage cans yet?

no...but the scientologists have.....i am not sure who is worse..those creeps or the US govt.

...recalling a Burroughs quote" .....Being paranoid is simply having a higher state of awareness..."or something along those lines............