I just learned a lesson,don't buy jewlery over the internet,make sure you can see it in person cause my aquamarine earrings came and they have no color.The picture the bastard posted they were very colorful,I think I must leave some feedback.I feel like such a sucker,at least it was only a little over twenty bucks.

finding it interesting that the onset of the holidays has once again dragged out everything that troubles us. i was married to the wrong person for ten years and then got divorced. then, after almost ten years of living alone found my true partner; the person with whom i had a vocation to spend the rest of my life. the word vocation is not used lightly since we are both roman catholic and have sought annulments so we could get married in church. the catholic church considers married life a vocation in the same way it regards religious life.

i guess my point is that we have shared a residence during this time but have not "co-habitated". we wanted our children to respect us and, hopefully, take example from us. sex has not been a major part of our relationship (i have my own room). what we have is our feelings for each other. it is simply wonderful to have someone who worships the ground on which you walk without reservation. when someone just loves you for who you are, there is nothing better.

although my male ego pushes me to "take care of things" and buy expensive presents, she constantly reminds me that none of this is important to her. all she wants is me. i should be ecstatic. why do i fight it? being male is REALLY dumb sometimes.

when you find that person who truly loves you, don't try to figure it out or do what you think are the "standard" things to do in response. enjoy it, for it may not come your way again.

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Why im answering your question, you silly webpage. Why do you ask?

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I'm thinking about making a peanut butter sandwich.

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Hey!! Jeff Walker,did you write a song about Mr.Bojangels?

'i guess my point is that we have shared a residence during this time but have not "co-habitated". we wanted our children to respect us and, hopefully, take example from us. sex has not been a major part of our relationship (i have my own room). '


huh?

that's what i was thinking.

thinking maybe it was a duplex

puffy.

i want a story about Lutz

wondering why it's difficult for heather (and agatha and n.b. for that matter) to understand that two people could be in love but wish to withhold sex until they are married. well, perhaps understanding will come with maturity.

by the way, got your attention, didn't i??!!

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Thinking about that 18 year old drama major and what in the world I could possibly have in common with her

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looking at the darkness through the dust on the window screen and feeling the numbness spread.

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sesquialtera- your post sounds like you are married. that's why i thought it was strange.

ses,

whoa. i understand it. i have done it.

that's not was i was wondering

among other things...

i think it's strange the boundaries you have and justifications you make to uphold them, it seems incongruous and not very real + are you sure that your kids understand all the subtleties of living/not living together?

however i am terribly happy for you that you have love, understanding and mutual goals.

reading an article from the NYTimes:

http://www.nytimes.com/2000/12/03/arts/03SISA.html

dipping the dork.

dipping the dork.

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wishing i wasnt so addicted to the sims.

disappointed that my pager message link hasn't worked since october 10. but it works now. i am tired of all this horse shit that is my life. i am eating pizza and reaching for the whisky and feeling the cold air blowing over me. it feels like it did in 1996, or was it 1995? was it Venice? i knew as soon as i got out of bed today that it felt too good to be breathing, that there was nowhere to go but here or wherever else down there is to go. there is farther to go, and i will deal with that in the morning. now i'm goign to put a bandage on my thumb.

at least you're not fucking broke, too. i've seen your atm receipts. i know you have thousands in your checking account. try feeling like you feel and being broke.

you're o.k.

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Sesqual..I admire your efforts to set an example in front of your children. I've always hated the "i'm an adult and can do what I want" spiel. There were a few'live-ins' and/or 'drop-ins' of my mother's when I was a kid. Used to walk in on them all the time! Sex was never any mystery to me, got to happen upon a live tutorial quite regularly. Twenty years later the old lady looks at me sideways all the time wondering way too late what I think o f her. She don't wanna know!! She should've cared at the time.

Way too much fuss is made over sex. People think there's something wrong with you if you live celibately or they conclude you must be gay. Beyond their comprehension to treat it in a respectful way. At times, I really can't feel too sorry for my women contemporaries and their man woes, but I understand.

So go ahead now and blast me, call me self-righteous and moralistically old fashioned. I know it's coming....

I just love Amee's s/o Jerry,we put up the tree yesterday,Jerry use to work for paddock pools putting up Christmas trees for rich people.He did the lights for me so that I can leave them on when I take it down,it took him about 5 hours and the poor kid has a broke shoulder.It looks so good.What a sweetie,I'm going to get him something speacial for Christmas.I'm doing some deep cleaning with my brand new vacume cleaner,self-propelled even,I'm a long lean cleaning machine.

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I could call you old fashioned, Syl, but then I have been considered old fashioned for considering intercourse as integral to lovemaking, so I can't judge ya there.

I just finished stuffing 22 envelopes with resumes and cover letters. now to send them out.
I am distributing them across the country, including the upper midwest/Great Lakes, but also Virginia, Ohio, Kentucky, Colorado, Washington, and Northern California.

Perhaps one will send up I flag I feel like salutin'.

wearing jeans to work today.

got a new pair at Good Will, some thick denim that i can wear while i'm in detroit. size 8, if you can believe that. low-rise, of course. can't stand to wear anything that comes up too high on the waist. because i'm so short, this makes finding jeans and pants a little more arduous and tiresome than it should be, because fuck if i'm gonna go The Gap.

i also got a gray ski cap and a pair of wool mittens. hard to believe i could find stuff like that at a good will in hawaii, but i did - though there wasn't a huge selection or anything. unfortunately i had no luck finding boots.

Kevin says he's visiting his family in Ft. Wayne for the holidays. he promised he would drive to Detroit for a few days to see me and meet my family. he invited me to Ft. Wayne to meet his family too. i'm not sure what all of this means, if it means anything at all, or if it's even going to really happen. he keeps saying he's coming to visit me here but he never does, so there's no point in getting my hopes up about this. it's just talk. but it sure would be fine if it actually happens. it sure would be good.

who else is gonna bring you a broken arrow?
who else is gonna bring you a bottle of rain?

Semillama, why don't you apply to work in Canada? We have a lot of dirt for you to dig in.

My chances of finding work in Canada are pretty dismal, according to the few historical/industrial archaeologists I have heard talk about it. Most of the support for archaeology in Canada goes to First Nations research, from what I've heard.

Sitting in my office
watching the masses
on the riverbank below.

Its summer, its warm,
there are white legs
being bared to the sun.

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while ____ _____
____ to ____.

sorry that i snapped at heather, agatha and n.b. i was a bit drunk when i wrote the first post. hence, some ambiguity. then, i saw your comments after a VERY bad day at work and it was too easy to be nasty.

my fiancee and i are not married. our kids are 17, 22 and 26. i believe they understand our reasons for not sharing the bedroom right now and respect us for them. the whole catholic thing is a can of worms not worth opening here. anyway, i guess i was trying to say that, despite the sleeping arrangements, i'm very happy and content because i know i'm with the right person (at last!). and, on those rare occasions when there are no kids in the house,...

once again, sorry about the sarcasm. there's no excuse for it. cheers.

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yes, yes, that's all good, but...

am i really boring? just tell me the truth.

of course not. i'm listening (reading, whatever).

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Cleaning with Dynamite.

If someone you knew disappeared one day, would you notice?

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No Agatha,your all good.

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happy birthday, kelsey.

i love you.

grinning ear to ear.

wishing Kel a very happy birthday. rock on with your bad self.

now. why are you grinning my dear? do tell.

happy Birthday, Agatha.

Don't take no nickels.

hey, neat. Happy birthday, Agatha.


someday I shall call you Aggie.

THANKS.

you all rock. i had pie and ice cream. otherwise, a relatively uneventful day.

I sent Agatha some cards,at her U.S.West e-mail address,I hope she got them.My mom is up to her insanity again.

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j, don't have that address no more. see below.

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thinking there should be rain today. The wetness on the street reflected on my cheeks.

I am so G.D. mad I can't see straight,my s/o got all tanked up and "accidently" threw away the long hose,and dusting brush to my brand new Hoover.Asshole also left our keys in the car in front of our house,unlocked,that's why someone stole it a couple of years go,and the moron never learns.I get tired of this,I get very hurt and angry,the pillow is talking to me"put me over his face""do it now",he threw away your National Lampoon collection,kill him!!!".If something along theses lines ever come up in court,please,loose lips sink big ships.Love,And just foget this.J

laughing at my "Who" name; I am:

"Silly Sandy Misty Blue Who"

Who're you? Go find out at www.meanone.com

but they all spelled 'silly' wrong I think.

Sitting in a high rise office building in downtwon Minneapolis. The current Temp job I have is a gang buster. I sit here all day and wait for someone to ask me to do something. This morning I 2-hole punched about 200 sheets of paper. And that is all I have done today. E-mail and lets talk about what you're doing. Just for shits and giggles.

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sitting the before said computer lab with three teenaged boys. they are all trying to find "love" on line. i wander if all people on line are just teenaged boys pretending to be 35.

listening to Reich trying
to find love

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I'm getting upset about the alien torture!

It's 2 a.m. and I'm still up and thinking what a fucking crazy life I have,my kids are goofy and my mom is completley out of her mind.She accused her next door neighbors of stealing her river rocks out of her front yard,then went over to their house and told them she knew they took them,and told them they could fuck themselves,that's why she wanted to move,because they can't stand her there.Little Susie Sunshine also called the homeowners association,because kids were playing outside,and called the Better Business Buraue(sp,note time)on the plumber who put in her hot water heater and accused him of stealing her wrench,which she later found.And you know,she's an old fucking bitch now,but she was a bitch when she was young too.And just between you and me,I've lived all my life with a nowhere man,oh,he has a point of veiw,but he knows not who he's talking to,he just see's what he wants to see.That's not like me.I guess I could have put this on the drunk thread,but what the feck?

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eating jalepeno kettle chips, drinking coffee, catching the fog with my bare hands.....

saying "hi" to the other patrick in the office...


signing off on a horrible cover....

receiving constant mail inviting me to the porn convention in Vegas....today its the Wicked girls on the frontside. I met them all before. there is only in particular that i find attractve....only because she looks like that shapely gal from Victoria Secret...Latetia Caste (?)

eating jalepeno kettle chips, drinking coffee, catching the fog with my bare hands.....

saying "hi" to the other patrick in the office...


signing off on a horrible cover....

receiving constant mail inviting me to the porn convention in Vegas....today its the Wicked girls on the frontside. I met them all before. there is only in particular that i find attractve....only because she looks like that shapely gal from Victoria Secret...Latetia Caste (?)

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Sitting at yet another boring day of work. Still haven't done more than a half hours' work today.

Drop me a line.

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enjoying checking in sporadically and seeing the effect of dusk on Radio City. but ostensibly, checking to see if internet network is experiencing problems - this site will bring them out if anything will.

typing

I went to the company party yesterday,I just was planning on eating and leaving,but Heather brought her drugged out girlfriends little girl,Alecia,she's only 2 and very small for 2,so we stuck around,she had a blast,such a little doll.You can tell she is bright but has been neglected,she was so hungry.She's going to be my Christmas angel.I had two brand new reversible dresses from Little People,they were size 12 to 18 months and they were too big for her,I gave them to her,she still looked cute in them.She won my s/o's heart too.He's putting up the crib now.I'm going to talk her mom into letting me keep her.

taking a seat in corporate xmas card hell

j - god bless you for wanting to take that little girl into your home and your heart. i hope everything works out.

long time no see.

I'm drinking beer.

I just wanna say I turned 29 today.

wishing that wishes were kisses.

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at the office. it's 9 p.m.

i have an interview for a new job on wednesday afternoon. and a lead on another job.

Got a reply already from the batch of resumes I sent out Thursday - guy in SE Wisconsion who might be interested come spring. Has a good rep.

We'll see what else rolls in.

on assignment for Lisa Carver

oh oh oh oh oh! The most beautiful boy in the world! The most beautiful boy ever!

honestly, from what I've seen of him so far, he is Perfect. he is everything (physically) that I ever wanted in a boy.

I don't know whether to be happy that he spoke to me for more than ten seconds, or unhappy because he's going home for two months.

he's adorable and he has an accent.

just got a preliminary job offer from a company in Columbus - This is way beyond what I expected. Who knew I would be in demand?

sem, you're always in demand around here, so why not in columbus? :) congrats!

freshly employed, as well.

hey, J, thanks for card.

very glad it wasn't porno.

I don't even know If I will take it yet, I sent out like 25 resumes and have gotten word on the reciept of 3 already, with two expressing some interest...my worries about my hirability have faded.

as adorable as a baby warthog and i have an accent. but not a texas one.

I am putting off going to my philosophy final.

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bidding for something on ebay for the first time ever. amusing.

Unfortunatley getting Alcia isn't going to be the piece of cake I thought,Heather say's the mother uses her for leverage,which is how the mom wormed her way into living off Heather to begin with.Heather also told Amee she heard the baby wake up around 2.a.m the other night and the mom was thumping on her.After hearing that,I'm thinking about 2 bruises she had on her little face and one of her legs didn't look right,and I'm pissed. I'm going to call C.P.S.,not that it will do any good,I did this once before and they called it a lifestyle choice.I need to do something,I could never live with myself if something happened to her,knowing what I know.She's waaaay too small for her age,and doesn't talk much for being 2.It breaks my heart that Heather has sunk so low,having shit bags using her,you lie down with the dogs, you wake up with the fleas.I'm about ready to call silent witness on the bunch of them.

j - please don't give up. you must get that child out of that situation before she is harmed beyond recovery. you're doing the right thing.

fuck CPS - call the police.

Saying goodbye to Sorabji.com for good

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Bushing that there's a wallaby named after me.
Honored, too, I suppose. Can I see pictures of my namesake?

can't take the heat, get outta the furnace, brotha.

another note:

Bloody bureaucrats! I asked the McCoy help desk a question and they threaten to revoke my email account, rather than admit they screwed up when they changed my account name without telling me.

if i had a dollar for every time someone huffed out of this place...

Tasty boy was here again yesterday. One of my co-workers told me he was in the library and insisted I go talk to him. I said I was too shy and blushed. I think.

anyway I missed my chance, but there may be another. Oh, most perfect boy Ever. (next to droopy, of course)


what kind of accent do you have, droop? my favorite is a faint irish one.

shivering with wild abandon, and no it isn't that cold. 3 hours of interview this afternoon for a promotion i won't know about for 3 weeks and i can't believe i did this to myself, what if they give me the job and then i have to do it, and all kinds of things came out of my mouth, i'm still chattering even though there's nobody here, but you. Oh and I didn't even get into document delivery, the world of knowledge comes to you, distance learning, vendor vs. in-house, on and on, i'm really sorry about my neglect of that scrambled wrdgma my brain is scrabbled now i wonder if i could eat something what's open now there's always awful house thank you for your time.

watching a cat stalking a wadded-up hamburger wrapper and a balled up sock - each item's comparative evil seems to alternate. right now she's creeping up on the sock with all the stealth of millions of years of evolution.

still haven't named her. sarah seems to want me to name her after a jazz singer.

i don't know what kind of accent i have, gee. when i moved to texas, i had a rhode island accent. after a while my accent either evened out between the two or reverted to a general mutt accent like the way that stray dogs that interbreed eventually revert to the same general body shape.

my grandparents were irish, so i can fake an irish accent.

your first post about this new object of your desire made me think of the john lennon son "beautiful boy." the song was about the birth of his son, but what the hell.