I'm all hopped up.

preparing for the morning trip to the excremediditation chamber.

2 weeks! I beg to differ oh wise one. I felt the Valerian effect in two days. If it had taken 2 weeks for me to feel it's effects I'd have thrown them outside. It doesn't make you sleepy during the day and definately aids you into a rip van winkle coma come snooze time. I've been taking it as needed, off and on for about 5 years. In a high stress or anxiety patch of events, it does make mellow the harried disposition. And it tames the pms monster and makes those menstrual cramps cramp less painfully. You'll still need your ibuprofen the day it hits, but with some Val in your system, it's a lot less uncomfortable.

However, I'm with you on
St. John's Wort; the still presently 'fashionable' herb.

We got Digitalis because of an herb called Foxglove.

We got Bayer Aspirin because of White Willow.

And no Victorian medicine cabinet was complete without a cache of good 'ol Laundenum, derived from Opium.

Plain to see where the past and present chemists and drug manufacturers at least got their ideas.

Anyway, everybody's system is different and an herb that works wonders for some may not do squat for another. I found Chamomile positively useless, same for Hops (goes in beer, should've worked) and Passion Flower, but hit the jackpot with my precious Valerian.

The FDA won't allow herb companies to label the bottles with terms like 'analgesic' or 'sedative', so you have to do your own research and try out.

Some folks don't give herbal treatments enough of a chance. Unlike chemical compounds that give their effects in a few minutes or a few hours, herbs do require a bit of a buildup in your system. You will have to fiddle around with the right dosage. In liquid forms, my personal preference because they get in your system that much quicker, I take a 3/4 to a full dropper in juice or coffee three times daily.

In 1000 mg capsules, 1 a day does it for me,

250mg capsules, I take 2-3 at a time twice a day.

You've got to take ENOUGH of the stuff to start with. Once it kicks in you can maintain on a lower dosage.

I had a friend who took one dropper of Chamomile for one day who gave it back to me and said , "Here, it didn't work."

It's still cheaper than going to the doctor and save for a relative few, unless as Sem noted, you've got some sort of condition, they're safe and at worst will only make you throw them back up if you take tod much, say like the whole bottle.

Anyway, herbs work for me so I'm more than a bit biased in their favor.

I can name one side effect I've experienced with Ginseng, makes me feel robust, energetic and....horneeeyyy!!!!

I'll definately be packing some on my honeymoon.

Paying homage to the Bean.

I love the bean dearly, but my body is now undert he assumption that it will recieve the bean before anything will be accomplished.

posessing of great dexterity and grace.

To prove as much, he has bumped his Sobe Wisdom, startled himself, made a grab at it, and splashed the tasty beverage all over himself, his desk, papers, monitor, and most noticeably, his keyboard.

teeheehee! tbone is clumsy.

it's going to be a busy day today. i need to find a friend to go dancing with (thinking of calling chris, not poem chis, but chris-who-i-thought-was-on-a-yearlong-hike-but-came-back-and-is-working-at-texaco-chris)

haven't seen him since graduation but sandy told me he's back in town.

i've never been dancing before. where should we go?

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I am thinking about what a miserable bitch that Martha Stewart is,did anyone read where she tried to get a limo driver arrested who accidently drove on to her property.She even blocked him in with her suv till the cops came.They dropped charges against the driver because she didn 't have signs posted that it was private property.I bet she's making signs right now,tole painting them even.God,she makes me sick.

i have this recurring fantasy where i burst into a martha stewart dinner and cover all her pristine folded linens and porcelain and whatnot with blood as she gasps in horror, unable to move.
then i make her clean it up.
yuppie asshole....

Yeah. Awhile back I heard she yelled at one of her kids because the kid fell down.
Someone should dump out her oregano jar and refill it with some Catnip..even better Cannabis! That ought to calm her down. Her next sit down dinner for six with 'herb' roasted potatoes should be quite the 'hit.' Tee-hee

Or put some pot in her car and call the cops hehe.Well better get off this computer it's "keeping it in the family week" on Jerry Springer,I don 't want to miss one sordid detail.

404

what's with the numbers?

i bought a new outfit today, including a satin rhinestone-studded choker.

meow!

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Sitting in my room reading my 378th e-mail of today.

:(

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Being amazed at these totally huge fucking coincedences that happen all the time. Wondering if it means anything about me that I see a coincedence and not just noise.

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I've tried and tried and tried. I've tried to be good and fight temptation, but I just can't do it anymore. I have to do it.
I AM DOWNLOADING "UNFORGIVEN" BY METALLICA ON NAPSTER!
God, I am so weak.

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I've tried and tried and tried. I've tried to be good and fight temmptation, but I just can't do it anymore. I have to do it.
I AM DOWNLOADING "UNFORGIVEN" BY METALLICA ON NAPSTER!
God, I am so weak. May the Napster gods have mercy on my soul.

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giggling.

slight change of plans. i'm going bowling with harm, her boyfriend brian, brian's friend jenner (whom brian is trying to fix me up with, according to harm), and a couple of other people who work at freddy's (who happen to be a couple).

is this just a subtle push, you think?

the other time i saw jenner, brian asked me what i thought of jenner's ass. i told him to shrink his jeans. i should've told him to moon me.

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inviting whoever wants it to register analmeat.com

you heard it here first.

i am tired. listening to harry chapin live in LA 9/77. he fucks up a good line, and then laughs at itself.

today was empty. i don't even know why i bothered living it.

i'm going to see a dentist on tuesday for the first time in 10 years. the more i worry about it the more i feel the decay reaching from my teeth up my brain and into my neck and into my chest cavity and into my asshole and into my legs.

so this week i tried to cram for the dentist by flossing frantically and brushing desperately.

i registered to vote for the first time. i will never talk politics with anyone, not even you, but i will say that one of the current presidential candidates meets my only requirement for an interesting public figure/politician: s/he must possess intelligence and some demonstrated level of natural curiosity. s/he can also be an asshole about. abraham lincoln was intelligent.

the bonus is that if i vote then i get to complain, and gosh darn it there is nothing i love more than to sit on my ass and belch at the world like it owes me a goddam living.

That was beautiful Mark,cause I read the stories,I know you have "dreams" about Tipper,I won 't hold that against you,just read Al 's plan for S.S, I loved your story about Cats,I am not ashamed to say I saw it.I have an angel music box that plays Memorys.

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just got off yahoo chat with the cat.

J, you need to be there.
sleepies for me.

wishing I hadn't had roos chewing on the line, stopping me from babbling as much as I wanted to.

I got offline, went on the verandah and there was a mother wallaby with a joey in her pouch down in my bottom paddock.

Unbloodybelievable!

I'm naming them Isolde and Sem.

Sarah,

I miss you, too.

honored.

listening to the new Queens of the Stone Age disc.

"nicotine, Valium, Vicodin, Marijuana, Extacy and Alcohol!"

c - c - c - c - c - cocaine!

couldn't resist. somebody cover that up, quick.

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Wanting to know what yahoo chat room Cat and Sem where in last night cause I was in a yahoo fight room last night myself,ripping major assholes.

thanks, j!.

Finance/Sharemarket Room - "Sorabji Love Nuggets Trading Post".

Guess what the welcome message was?

But I couldn't get Yahoo Chat to work properly, for some reason, so I had to keep logging off every five minutes like I had a bad case of the runs.

Email me J so I can give you my username and stuff.

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munching on cold veggie pizza. and her lip.

i have a love interest! and he's a nice guy.

he's got a bit of an additude, but towards the end he would pat me on the shoulder 'cause i don't take that stuff.

he graduated a year early 'cause they wouldn't let him take ap euro.

intriuging...

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saw All Quiet on the Western Front last night. Really puts films like Saving Pvt. Ryan and The Thin Red Line into perspective, cinematically. I highly recommend it, it's not dated at all, and any film that gets banned in countries preparing to send their young men to war is a must-see in my book.

throwing out the garbage.

"in this wall-to-wall bulllshit, i got hardwood floors."

goddamn it always pays to be decisive.

bitter estrogen is bad for the blood.

it's time to get back to business.

trying to find ?sorabji phone number.
tooling around sorabji.com

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traying to drink a lot of milk so we can make ice in the jug.

we're (my parents, ls and i) are going camping. in the middle of nowhere. 20 miles from fossil. tomorrow.

my mom's insisting that we come home on wednesday instead of tuesday, even though i have work at noon.

what are the chances that we'll be able to get going at 6 am?

i'll be to tired to work my nine hour shift.

besides, what if jon calls? apperently harm's boyfriend brian was sitting in the backseat of my car, pointing at jon and me and chanting "electricity" over and over.

this isn't a setup, right?

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excited.

My new roommate is moving in this evening.

Work is gonna just crawl.

Tbone is a genius,I forget where the thread was where everyone posted their pictures,but he did this for me.This is not anywhere near recent,I have been tring for 2 weeks to get my s/o to get my picture boxes down for me,he is as lazy as I am.http://216.166.147.78/~tbone/photos/J.jpg

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Oh well,I tried.

proving again my grace and dexterity by covering myself and most of my desk with the contents of a freshly opened, ice-cold can of Mountain Dew.

Dammit. I need a sippy cup.

finally getting ready to print my report for last year. The last little errors are out, and I will be mightily glad when it's off to the printers.

nice haircut, mark. you look like you need a nap.

apparently being an asshole.

i hate it when people start crying when i'm just trying to help them out.

i need a new boo.

build me a woman.

make her 10 feet tall.

remembering when my actions didn't affect anyone other than me.
Now they do.


i hate it

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wow, J. That really you?
You're pretty. And a good writer.

Done done done with my 1000 page report that's been hanging over my head like a sword of Damocles!

listening to lalo guerrero's "marihuana boogie."

which makes me think that i'd like to start smoking pot again.

which makes me think of J. - thanks for the jibjab link! and i think your purdy, too.

now i'll go back and see how tiger is doing.

monday night golf.

are you ready for some golf!

sipping bad coffee and moving slow. and wishing Mavis a speedy recovery from her illness.

Very, very tired. going
to bed. Any one heard
about a Killing Joke
reunion? They have anew
track out on the West
memphis three benfit
album. I HOPE THEY TOUR!
Hey, Sem, soulfly's
playing in Minnepolis,
w

so the dentist looks at my X-rays and says "i think 10 years between visits is an all-time record, but looking at your x-rays i'd say that you got away with. you are blessed to not be prone to tooth decay."

nothing. no cavities, no loose teeth, no mouth cancer, no little nativity scenes flourishing in my teeth, nothing more than plaque and some sore gums. and no lectures. actually, there are 2 possible tiny cavities, but they'll look at that again next week. basically it's just another visit next week for follow-up cleaning.

bored with my music collection. It's tired.

I need some new stuff, bad.

Oh Tb..just thought i'd mention that your spilly gitters and tiredness might be attributed to your intake of Dew. That stuff has a whopping dose of caffeine in it, one of the worst of all the sugar water caffeinated make you a lifetime addict sending 50 generations of corporate goon's kids to college forever-soda products.

The spiral down after the sugar and caffiene could be what makes you want to go sleepy-byes when you can't.

Get yourself some Ginseng m'lad.

TIRED. JUST FINISHED A ROUND OF GOLF AT GREYHAWK. NOW i GOT TO GO TO WORK...BLEHH!!!!

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Speaking of Dr.,s I just want to bitch about my horrile experience at the Dr,s yesterday.I tripped over my dishwasher door quite a while ago,wacked the hell out of my shins,but it wasn,t till about a week later that I noticed the toe next to the big one was swollen,it didn' t hurt and I could walk o.k.,but I thought maybe something was wrong,that I should have it looked at.My appointment was for 3p.m.,I didn,t get out of there till 6p.m. I was so pissed off!!! after a hour I started bitching out loud,soon about 5 of us were bitching out loud,but I was still the last one seen ,even his staff was gone by the time I got out of there.That is just greed,overbooking.Pff.

Skooter, m'lad, Killing Joke never broke up, just were on hiatus. And when aer Soulfly playing, and how many tickets should I pick up?

Right now I am proofreading a friend's paper for an upcoming conference. It's a sea of purple commentary and corrections. Needs reorganizing and clarification, but after that, should be a good paper.

an old sickness has come back to pester me again. i'm getting dangerously drunk tonight remembering the last time i faced this. not exactly a lifetime ago, but it feel like it. oh how it feel like it. if i can shake it this time i think i can grow up once and for all. turn out the lights. rot in hell like i deserve. i hate myself the same now as in 1993. if i can't deal with this then the 1 or 2 of you still reading this can expect more of the same festering horse shit, or you could just forget about it

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worried.

Think of those sparkling cavity-less pegs. It's a shame to gnash such wonders of nature.

But bring on the horseshit if that will help.

applying for a camping permit online. also, surfing for good cookie recipes.

Here with 9 people for the lastest Net-meet. Did Adventure Island water park yesterday and had a blast! Went out last night and we all ended up on stage singing....quiete a sight! Today we're doing Anclote Island on the boat. Tomorrow we're all going on a deep sea fishing trip, that should be fun. This group is so much fun. So outgoing and energetic and funny and very down to earth. No one acts better than anyone else and no one judges each other. And, the guys are MUCH better looking than the old group! I'll miss them when they leave on Friday.

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recovering, slowly, from "fluid trauma to the eustachian tubes"....sitting at my desk, drinking lots of water....mmmmmm.

filling out tax record data forms.

SUICIDE

By Bobby Gaylor
1999

Animals don't have a choice.
If they're not happy with their place in the world... too bad.
They have to live the life they've been given.
Humans, on the other hand, don't have to.
We have a choice.
If you don't like your place in the world
you can get off anytime you want.
Suicide. That's right.
You don't like the way your life's going,
you don't like the way you are in the world,
anything around you,
you can check out anytime you like.
Animals aren't allowed that thought
and believe me, if they were, they would use it.
There'd be a lot of dogs and cats, owned by assholes
that live in high-rises, diving out the windows.
Zebras... if they even had remotely that thought
would take a look at themselves and go, "What the F*#K!
Black & white in a green & brown world... this blows.
I'm just gonna jump in the river.... I don't have a thumb to work a gun or
hold a knife or even open a jar of pills. I'm just gonna dive into the next
lion's mouth. Why even bother?"
Now, monkeys have the opposable thumb so they could kinda do it the
exact same way we do. Now, there's a bunch of people that say, "Oh, it's
against the law". Well, it's only against the law if you do a crappy job and
get caught. Other people say, "Oh, we should save them". Yeah, well you
know what? Not everybody wants to be saved. Not everybody should be
saved. And who are we to force our will upon them? I mean, isn't that one
of the joys about being a human? Freedom of choice? Now, it's not all bad.
Now, I'm not saying "Kill yourself". But if you're gonna be an idiot and do
it anyway, it's no sweat off of my back. There's a lot of good that could
come from it. A little bit of bad thrown in. Some of the things: A job will
open... An apartment will become available... There'll be more air for me...
They say there's two girls for every guy - if you're a man, there'll be four
chicks for me... There'll be more Ketel One vodka for me... There'll be one
less idiot in line at the bank who gets up to the window without their
F*#King slips filled out... I won't ever have to go to the store to buy my
favorite Salt & Vinegar Chips and have the clerk point at you and say,
"They bought the last bag".... You won't help change the McDonald's sign
to a Hundred Billion Served... You'll never get AIDS... You won't have to
worry about calories ever... No more, "Hey, does this make me look fat?"...
There'll be one less polluting human...You won't have to recycle... There'll be
one less car on the road... There'll be more Ring Dings for me... Fifty or so
chickens' lives will be spared... Your fingers won't ever get red from eating
pistachios... You won't be forced to visit your Grandparents on Sundays
anymore... No more church... You'll be saying, "Hey, World - Kiss My
Ass!"... No more wet dreams about Supermodels... No more Barry
Manilow... For a few years anyway... Wondering "Am I a loser?" will be a
thing of the past... Say good-bye to crappy Xmas presents from Aunts and
Uncles... You won't have to suffer through a Motley Crue reunion... F*#K
flossing and brushing... You'll never lose sleep over a pregnancy scare...
Adios, Acne... Worrying whether you fit in or not won't be on your brain...
See ya later, homework... You'll never have to sit through another movie
brought to you by the creators of South Park... Schools out forever.... No
more paying bills... You won't have to do chores... You won't be able to run
over toads with the lawnmower though... You'll also miss McDonald's
French Fries... Bugs Bunny... The amazing electrifying feeling that surges
through your body when you kiss someone for the first time...
You won't be able to watch the letterbox director's cut of Jaws... Candy...
Living above ground... Pudding crust... You'll miss the rush of getting your
first apartment... Getting to the point in your life where you can tell your
parents to "F*#K Off! I gotta make my own mistakes....you did"... You'll
miss sex - you'll miss thinking about it, looking for it, sex by yourself, sex
with a partner, sex with multiple partners... No more summer nights that
seem to go on forever... Roller coasters.... Naming your kid the name you
always wanted... Making a difference in the world... You'll miss the
experience and pleasure of Hallucinogenics... Watching your neighbor's wife
change clothes with her blinds open... A lifetime of masturbating... Watching
your favorite team sweep the series... Music... You will definitely miss
music... Trying to sneak into your house drunk - three hours past your
curfew... You'll miss the blaze and glory of the 4th of July fireworks... The
taste of Captain Crunch... If you're a boy, you'll miss the feeling the first
time you reach up a girl's shirt... If you're a girl, the feeling the first time you
reach down a boy's pants... You'll miss your favorite coat... Waffles with
whipped cream and strawberries... Beating your friends at video games...
You won't be around to see what shape and color the new marshmallow in
Lucky Charms will be... You'll miss the feeling you get when reminiscing
about your first love - thirty years after the fact... The joy of giving and
receiving at Christmas... Skinny dipping... Getting stoned, reading Green
Eggs & Ham, and eating like a horse that got loose in the grain bin... Flying
cars... Hey, you were born - Finish what was started.

on the moon. her mood is, anyway.

went out with jon, harm and brian. left harm and brian to have sex and drove jon to his job. blockbuster.

he said he likes me!!!

i just sat there grinning and pretended to grab his nose. i've not grabbed his nose, but i did get a hold of his butt. he's got a hard little heinie!

we played ice games in shari's. he tossed a couple down my shirt. i got more down his, though. and i tried to put one in his ear.

we gave each other back massauges and i got a piggyback ride.

he kissed me as he got out of the car.

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damn it, i seem to be having problems lately getting the boards to accept my posts...

hot and humid here already and it's only 0722! @#$%#!@!

think I will head out early to go home, it's nice and cool up there. Going to teh Reggae fest, but I wish I knew when the band I'm with is going on.

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