painted in May (5-11)

http://artroger.com/Artists/Willman/newyorkisburning_image.htm

painted in May, 2001
(5-11)

http://artroger.com/Artists/Willman/newyorkisburning_image.htm

this and that

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10% smaller than she was six weeks ago!

synthesizing e-mail

Going to see
Tomahawk (Mike
Patton, Duane
Denison, the drummer
from Helmet, bassist
from the Melvins), and
motherfucking TOOL in
Green Bay, Wis.
TONIGHT!

"Ant Man Bee"

White ants runnin'
Black ants crawlin'
Yella ants dreamin'
Brown ants longin'
All those people longin' to be free
Uhuru ant man bee uhuru ant man bee
All the ants in God's garden they can't get along
War still runnin' on
It's that one lump uh sugar
That they won't leave each other 'lone
Why do yuh have t' do this
You've got t' let us free
Why do yuh have t' do this
You've got t' set us free
Why do yuh have t' do this
You've got t' set us free
Why do yuh have t' do this
You've got t' set us free
Uhuru ant man bee uhuru ant man bee
Now the bee takes his honey then he sets the flower free
But in God's garden only
Man 'n the ants
They won't set each other be

http://www.beefheart.com

ready to begin a new choir season at my church. loving what i do for a living.

thank you for letting me be lower case.

Duane Denison, huh, Skooter? I wondered what he had been up to. So how was he?

going to the co-op to get something sweet. This iced chai is yummy but is just not doing it for me right now. In order to make myself feel better about this, I'm going to get a Clif� bar as well, which will save me from getting a Twix� bar tomorrow in between classes.

sick.

ARGH!

Whats a Clif bar?

Now you've done it Kazoo - started me off on my 'merican candy obessession again.

Clif� bars are great. They are energy bars with soy protein and 23 vitamins and minerals. They are a lot better than Power Bars� and come in all kinds of nifty flavors, like Cranberry-Apple-Cherry, Peanut Butter Crunch, Carrot Cake, Ginger Snap, Cookies-n-Cream, and so on. They are kosher and wheat, egg, & dairy free. They are also a nice do-gooder company.

They have a website. I used to order them in bulk when I wasn't near a store that sold them and I didn't have a car.

I read that CBS was going to do a real tv style Beverly Hillbillies immediately I thought of Jesco White,his mom would make the perfect granny.I sent CBS an e-mail recommending the White family,I'd just love to see them mud bogging on their Beverly Hills lawn.Got a reply and I don't think they even read my letter,they just sent me the phone number to call if I want to audition it's 323-993-7104 I sure wish I knew how to get ahold of Jesco.Then again, I AM a granny,swimming pools,movie stars,maybe bitch slapping Zaza...hmmm

you know, "Hero" really isn't an appropriate song for "Spider-Man".


my friend is having a BBQ for me today! He's buying me steak! yum yum!

happy because we just got a puppy. 6 months old, her name is Sarah, she's a shorthaired pointer, chocolate and white, and has more energy than a barrelful of monkeys. My cats are not happy though, but they'll get used to her. Sarah says "woof" to you all.

pictures, dougie, pictures!

dang, but how i love pointers.

I'm just hanging around

getting kiwiana to the world is one of my main goals in life.

Holy Crap. I'm listening to WCBS 880 AM at 2:07 AM on September 5, 2002, and they are talking about the exact same thing they were talking about on this exact radio station when i first got to New York on October 24, 1990. They are talking about the Central Park Jogger Trial, which is about to rear its ugly head again? When I first moved here I remember hearing all kinds of intricate details on the radio about that event. I remember working a $10/hour job in the basement of a hotel/condo on 2nd Avenue/57th Street right after they announced the verdict. And I thought I was gonna get my ass kicked. Well, maybe I did get my ass kicked. Aah, now the guy with the deranged voice is reciting lottery and powerball numbers. If you missed your lucky number you'll find it on their web site.

prepping


i have a big shoot tomorrow.

Almost a weeks salary in one day.

Its a pin up calendar. Two porn/web girls and one "Bud Light" girl (as I call her).

The theme is shooting them with Grip accessories in seductive ways. Grip, as in key grip, dolly grip, best boy for films. A pin up calendar for these types of folks.

Why? Well the idea is actually a great one. Most of those types are very blue collar, union men (and a few women), teamsters etc etc. Tight knit bunch. Love beer, sports and their jobs and what better than to offer a pin up calendar catering to them.

It will be shot with various grip related imagery. Gaffer tape, "grip clips", dolly track, apple boxes, camo netting, hemp rope, etc etc. Tools of the trade.

Should be interesting as the 'producer' (i.e. the financier) is running it like a movie production.

Its amusing to watch him stress. For such a large production im cool and calm.

He wants to light the bitch like mad. I keep reminding him we don't need that much juice. He freaked out when the hair guy cancelled, leaving him with 2 make up people, who I say will do just fine on hair. I have good pal of mine acting as AD (asst. director) who is my right hand man. Both he and the producer are Grips, hence their know-how. And in true grip/crewman fashion they are spending an extraordinary amount & money determing craft services (i.e. food/lunch).

This whole thing is turning out to be one big ass amusement for me.

I keep telling them to relax, that all will pan out, that they don't need to kiss the girls' asses as much since they ARE getting paid to do this.They ARE in porn, so they'll be glad we are just shooting risque shots rather than asking them to take it in the ass. *laughs* that would cost so much more money.

sick of seeing my last WAYD

I remember that whole Central Park Jogger episode.
Who would have guessed it would all come back out 12 years later.
12 years ago...seems like forever ago.
I'm getting old.

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will have pix soon, agatha. She's a cute pup.

I didn't think I could lose anymore.

hard hard hard hard hard.

can't decide between wanting to be anywhere but here or nowhere else but here.

Puffing on my churchwarden.

That's not a catholic church reference. It's a type of pipe.

Reclining out in front of my apartment, poking at the laptop, gazing at the dark grey sky, and wishing the neighbors would shut the hell up and let me relax.

Hell of a week. New roommate, new semester, major car repair, bars, sex, music, and minor collisions.

I still need to do my homework.

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putting love out of my
mind so I can go meet
my grandmother for
brunch and make
polite conversation.

man, you're always in
love.

that must be
exhausting.

feeling rather poetic.

two cups of coffee and a garlic bagel
make the day feel ok.
negotations are silent for the time being,
hostility has been evaded.

i am going to my parents house in 20 minutes, with the season 1 of mash for their birthdays, a photograph of the broadway bridge for my grandma (as a thank-you for my grandfather's camera).

last night i got angry for one of the first few times in years. i've been angry before but it was closer sadness; a rather submissive and fleeting type of anger.

this anger is one that's telling me that i must speak up, that i must want something and i must find it. it's about sex and egos, and hurt.

i want to sing. i really want to sing, and dance and create. dingo called me a rock star last night, i don't really know what it means except it means power and i've got to start standing up for myself and what i believe in.

we'll see how it goes, every day's a new day and i can be strong.

sythesizing e-mail

making dinner, and invading Iraq

what do you make of two sticks, a slash and a round (donut-shaped) cookie with a stick hanging from it?

9/9/2002, 1:32 AM
Mohammad Atta is:
what do you make of two sticks, a slash and a round (donut-shaped) cookie with a stick hanging from it?

UH . . .A MOBILE

totally and completely absent minded. I forgot to bring a pen to campus (again). This time I won't be able to ask anyone in my department for one which means I'll have to stop at CVS because I'm not allowed to talk to strangers.

I should have worked in an office. They give you pens there, right?

totally and completely absent minded. I forgot to bring a pen to campus (again). This time I won't be able to ask anyone in my department for one which means I'll have to stop at CVS because I'm not allowed to talk to strangers.

I should have worked in an office. They give you pens there, right?

teehee

someone nailed my tire.

sometimes you just don't want to deal with anything else.

tired. been up for over
12 hours now and still
have stuff that needs to
get done tonight. I will
do it after dinner
though, because after i
check this place i am
getting the hell out of
here.

looking at the horrifying plume of brown smoke from the fire in Glendale, some 4-5 miles away.

ding dong my evil flatmates are gone


I GOT MY HOUSE BACK.

Sorry, I'm excited. : )

hOW DARE Shrub Jr. raise the scare tactics to orange! Is it Halloween?
He just wants to bring his machine gun toting guards in for his speech.
It must for the scare-A-bration. .

China doesn't even have missiles that can hit the U.S.

feeling profound pity and sadness for the human race

ga-ga over a new guy.

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while processing this
directive]

http://www.cinematicorchestra.com

Remembering.

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Remembering as well.
God Bless...
Us All.

puking at the general wrongness of everything today.


wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong

There is a quake that rips the soul asunder. . .
it is the pain of remembering.

There is a quake that rips the soul asunder. . .
it is the pain of remembering.

the city dumps fill
the junkyards fill
the madhouses fill
the hospitals fill
the graveyards fill

...

http://
www.maudom.de/

Folks,
folks.
. . . . . it's time for some inane humour.
Let's watch ParkSouth on Comedic Central uh . . . chanel 39 on the box . . . ?
Central Standard 9pm?

basking in the soothing sounds of military helicopters circling overhead

christ, the park was beautiful today.

http://www.sorabji.com/2002/september/12/

sadness

I won't back down,and I stand my ground,and if this old world keeps pushing me around,I won't back down.Today my balls got bigger,you are all going to hate me,but this is how it is,I think Iraq is going to do something,I think we know it,and yes we want the oil,what the fuck do you think is going to happen? And why?

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Wondering if J is OK

i think that the world thinks that Shrub is an idiot. a dangerous idiot, like a bull in a china shop.

Hoping Margret can recommend 3-5 titles relating to US History that she can recommend. Im talkin top shelf...the, most memorable and impressive books that you'd think id enjoy.

uhhh

How bout those action figures. . . ? military one are doing great$

head-over-heels for a new girl

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I am sorry to note that
such awful, egregious grammatical sloppiness is tolerated by the instructors at the "colleges" you were regretting not following Susan into. Lest you think precision in written communication is irrelevant since crummy
syntax seems to be everywhere, grammar is the logical framework upon which human thought is built.

slow to warm up.

When did that happen?

so,...that should have been,..."by the instructors at the 'colleges' into which you were regretting not following susan."

shame on you for ending your sentence with a preposition.

Elvis Costello is comeing next month and I'm going to see him at the Dodge Theater!!!!!!!And Robert Schimmel the funniest man alive is coming that same week to the Tempe Improv!!!!!!!!Joy

Warren Zevon is dying,
while a domestic/
neighbor dispute
seems to be well in
hand by the friendly
police outside. I hear
laughter when before
people were talking a
little heatedly. I think it
has something to do
with the one neighbor
who had police visit
her before.

I believe the smartly
dressed young officer
has just arrested the
boyfriend.

remind me, the next time I talk about some boy I'm interested in, NOT to EVER introduce him to my best friend.

I love her, but she has no respect for OPP (so to speak).

is listening to KidA, for the first time in over a year. The other day it was Nick Drake. It brings me back to exactly where I wanted to be and not where I thought it would take me.

Coming full circle is good.

Gee! I totally hear you.

Watching the Dogme film festival on IFC tv.

really fsked up.

dont do valium.

planning out travel for
next two months

mostly recovered from my er visit. all hyped up on prednisone.

i can breathe!

"The child-
held the old T.P. roll
carefully
thoughtful
not to misshape
the hole"

getting dressed for an event a pretentious art gallery in the city. i feel like i have to go because it's my sister's goodbye party, but it's going to be filled with all the sorts of people i hate. so i'm dressing in my most dour black and hoping for the best.

cary is going to study at christies in london for a year. craziness. i wish i was doing something successful and cool like that, but i'm not. i suppose she does have a good ten years on me, but still. i feel sort of useless.

unfortunately, my crazy aunt is going to be there. this should be interesting. what is the fascination that older married women have with younger unmarried family members, and why do they feel obligated to ask why i'm not married every time i see them?

tell them you've too many offers to decide which one you might want to marry.


or tell them you're gay.

reading the best story yet.

Lilacs are my favourite flower.

I already told them I was gay. California is the land of domestic partners.

I just got really drunk instead, which was actually a pretty good way to deal with it. Floating away on a cloud of happiness.

The art was really crappy, though.

whateverhappenedtodrunkenramblings?

synthesizing e-mail

HOLY SHIT! HOW DID THAT NAKED LADY GET IN THERE?

"I won't droop if you won't talk about your hands being too small."

maybe chelsea was just cold?

pondering an offer that might just make me rich,...and it's all about music! after all these years and all the bullshit, i might actually fund my retirement with profits made from music!!

think about it, mark. do you want to run this web site for the next fifteen years (that would make you about as old as i am now), or would you like to figure out a way to earn a living doing that which goes to the core of your being?

"God Please Fuck My mInd for good"

Shut up, joe. Why can't
he do both?

Coming to terms with my love for Bono.

I was in denial for many many years. How could I like him? He's so overdramatic, always wailing and carrying on. Sheesh.

But no, it's true. His voice to me is like an old friend's warm handshake. You trust it. You let it fit around you, settling into it comfortably. Meeting it for the first time in years makes you sigh with what could be relief.

Relief from what?

The harsh world, perhaps. The world populated by Linkin Park and their emulators. A world I want no part of.

Is it New Year's Day yet?

hurting. Found an old Listerine Strips pack, and the strips must've gotten moist and stuck together. Put the whole thing in my mouth. Mistake.

I meant Iraq not Iran,saw in the news today they will have the nuclear bomb by Christmas,that's not a good thing.

"Three months in the mirror
burning hip
- let's go to the kennel honey
and get one of those cute little moth pups
they flap their little wings
and fly around a light globe
and you can keep 'em in the closet
and feed 'em socks -
six months in the mirror
burning hip
- honey let's go out naked tonight
with our moth puppy
don't forget the socks and the light bulbs
make sure it's not too warm
you don't want to burn his lttle wings -
the lights are soft, streets soft, skies soft,
the mirrors soft
the smell of burnt powder
the moth flies through the mirror
powder falls lightly around around around
and around the sun"

(1987) DonVanVliet

Thanking God for Scott Ritter's attempt in Iraq and listening to his speech on C-span right now.

awake.

And I don't want to be.

Praying that Scott Ritter's actions will stop the Emperor's wish for attack.

blowing off work for the second day in a row.

Praying for Czarina's mother who is in the hospital and might not make it.

trying to decide if i should laugh or be pissed about being called a "stupid cunt" on bart.

wishing my walls weren't made out of totally cheesy material that won't take screws.

totally cheesy material -- you mean drywall? If so, you need to drive in drywall anchors to accept screws platy, available at any hardware.

I finally have a bra that fits! Not just one, actually, but three. Three for $39 at La Senza. You have no idea how happy I am to be shaped properly.

when I put it on, my friend looked at me and said "I had no idea you were that big!" That's because I haven't had a bra that FIT in so long.


yes, I have big boobies. I could be an amazon if I wanted to.

i can't, dougie, it's not my house. it's very irritating not to be able to use the proper implements, let me tell you. my plaster solution seems to be working ok.

i just found bras that fit, too. i'm excited about them. macy's can be a wondeful place. it makes such a diffrence in my mood to have bras that fit right, too. and they're my favourite style--front snap racerback. oh, yes.

where is fed ex? i want my present to get here.

i got the "why aren't you married" question this weekend, as i do every year at this event, it was delivered in a courtly manner (you're such a beautiful girl, why...) from a man wearing a toupee. It was sort of reddish, not really purple. i forget what i answered this time

Ah, the quest for the bra that fits. More than one thread has been started on that subject. It's quite a concern.

I want to know why so many of the bras in my size (36D) are push-up or come with padding. Who could want to look bigger??

It is quite a quest. I've noticed that bras made for bigger busted girls (I'm a 32dd) tend to be really horrid, scary old lady bras, as though we never get any.

I've noticed the padding thing too...if anything, I want a reducer.

WHERE IS FEDEX, DAMNIT!

waiting until the last minute (as usual) and wondering if everyone in my Anthropology class is doing the same.

I wish I had a REALLY GOOD fitting bra. All of mine do okay, but nothing that I get really excited about.

wondering breifly about
booby sizes of
sorabjites.

then suddenly thankful
penis measurements
have not come up for
sorabjites.


Actually, have they
ever?

dang! y'all got big boobies!

i'm a b cup. i was an a cup before i birthed.

a C cup.

I was a D cup, fifteen pounds ago.

i'm a C. i used to be a B at my thinnest, and a D at my heaviest.

i am an L, used to be an I. . those were the days. . .

Grooving to Mr. Rod Serling in
The
Twilight
Zone:

http://www.npr.org/programs/morning/features/patc/twilightzone/index.html

About to enter:
The Twilight Zone

http://www.npr.org/programs/morning/features/patc/twilightzone/index.html

mmmmm. darvocet.

sorry, sem, but it can't be done. if mark re-directed the energy he expends running this web site to music, he could make a living. you and he will realize this when you're older. there is no way i can convince you now. i was the same as you once upon a time.

oh boy, is this going to evoke a load of bullshit, or what?

by the way, thank you for allowing me to remain in lower case. i consider it an honor.

oh but pooh! why am i not lower case in "mangle"? c'mon mark, please allow me the same identity throughout the web site. it's only fair.

and mark, when are we going to hear some new piano music,...you know,...something posted since 1998? what's up?

"oh boy, is this going to evoke a load of bullshit, or what?"

I think the bullshit is already there.

argh...why am I still awake? at least tonight I have something to do.

oh yeah see I was all about posting my bra size, but Joe has distracted me with his parental 'get a job type ramblings'.

DD now, when I'm thiner I'm a C

debating. Should I drink this coffee now or take a power nap? Coffee now or power nap?

Well, it' seems as though the sorabji ladies are doing their fair share of 'fessin up. I guess that means it's time for the guys to um, argh...ick, ew...SHIT, where is Cat when you really need her?

(This is Sem's fault, not mine.)

joe, you underestimate mark a great deal. it's annoying.

also, are you drunk when you post the same essential thing over and over and over, or are you just boring?

"I want a woman that'll hold my big toe until I gotta go"
what happens when you mix "uncut tiger balls with beer pills?"

padding isn't just there to make you bigger. it helps to shape you. I didn't get that at first, either, but now I'm clear. Just that I'd stick that in.


also, Semillama, what is the difference between liminality and liminoid?

You can be shaped without padding. Enough with the padding!

I'm not Sem, but I can tell you that liminality is the quality of being just barely perceptible. Liminal comes from the word that means threshold, so saying a sound is liminal meaning it's just barely audible. Liminoid must be another form of liminal.

My beloved Roman professor also used liminal to mean a different kind of threshold -- he would talk about liminal moments, the moments in which you (or the world, or society) pass from one stage into another.

feeling subliminal

note the common root
for limit, liminal,
liminoid, liminality.

Sort of wish i had taken
latin. it's fun to notice
roots in words.

I would like to know why Turner (I think it was Turner. so many damn names to remember) switched from "liminality" to "liminoid". I just assume Semillama knows Everything about anthropology, so I asked him.

Names I learned yesterday: Turner, Grason, Sheilds. I'll be damned if I can remember who wrote what.

Gee, did you learn the name Malinowski?

No, but it was only the first day. okay, technically second day, but nothing ever happens in the first class, so it doesn't count.

I took a lot of notes. still, I remember nothing.

do you think, if I ask really nicely, Semillama will do all of my homework for me this year?

for a small fee.

agreeing that joe is annoying

but i think i said that a long time ago

sorry joe, but really you should get a clue

"Come on down to the big dig.

Can't get around the big dig."

FRANCH

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annoying and parental. i love it. that is exactly what i wanted to be (no disrespect to mel, who made her comment without attacking me. funny how the rest of you only know how to attack). just one post gets all of you in a dither.

please, agatha, tell us how you are so sure that i underestimate mark. describe your personal relationship with him and site specific examples.

heather, about what should i get a clue?

oh, and yes, agatha,...am i drunk? i thought that "drunken ramblings" was one of the most popular strings on this site. what am i doing that is so offensive, other than questioning your internet demi-god?

first of all, joe, you have made quite a few annoying posts, most of these have been ignored.

there is no demi-god. there is a person.

you should get a clue about posting condescending "advice" to someone (who i assume you do not know,) in the public forum of something that belongs to him.

questioning the lives of others, especially those of which you have only seen a glimpse, is arrogant not to mention lame.

I have no problems with Joe or anybody,I'm all good with you all,I'm tanked but have realized that this will only be up a month.What does bother me is that I'm still being harrased by the city of Chandler.

I have no problems with Joe or anybody,I'm all good with you all,I'm tanked but have realized that this will only be up a month.What does bother me is that I'm still being harrased by the city of Chandler.

J whats happening with the city of Chandler?

I try not to make personal attacks Joe cause thats the sort of person I am. Kiwi's are very polite people, we subtly hint things rather than state whats fairly obvious.

last night was quite a night for CA baseball: Angels vs. A's and Dodgers vs. Giants. Don't see that much, or maybe you do, and I just never noticed.

I want a talking Dougie doll.

The kind with the string that you can pull and have him saying funny things.

thanks Kazoo, you're too kind. If I were to make one, I'd want it to have a good and evil switch on it, like the talking Krusty doll.

wondering what the evil Dougie would be like.

The mind reels!

listening to my co-workers laugh at silly web pages

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www.ibiblio.org/kelly

well kids, I've filled these pages with enough garbage for one day, so I will take my leave of you to go out in search of the elusive striped bass. They're crafty sob's I tell ya. Toodles.

Deciding whether or not to panic.

do people make a concious decision whether to panic or not? Hmm, I do not know. Anyhow, fishing was a bust. Strong south winds fishing on the south shore is not a good thing, plus it was a seaweed salad bowl out there. D'OH!

But, get this, I GOT THE FUCKING JOB OFFER THIS COMPANY'S BEEN STRINGING IN FRONT OF MY NOSE FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS NOW!!! WAHOO!!!! GOT HOME AND THEY CALLED ME FROM CORP OFFICES IN CALIFORNIA. I AM SO GREAT, I AM SO GREAT, G-R-E-T, I MEAN G-R-E-A-T!!!

Damn, the waiting was interminable on this one. This is the offer I really wanted. Turns out the company's fiscal year doesn't start til October, and that's why the longass wait. Fuckers. Oh well, NEW JOB!!! I'm going to have to take the little woman out to celebrate. Where to go, where to go? I know, SUSHI AND JUMBO SAPPOROS!!!

joe, i have met mark and stayed in his apartment, i know where he worked and i know about his musical abilities. and i know that he is doing exactly what he wants to be doing right now, and that if he ever desired to be doing something else, he would be doing it. i am going to avoid saying anything else about mark because he values his privacy, but let me just say that your assessment of him that seems to be based on little to no actual knowledge and is grossly inaccurate. beyond that, apparently mark doesn't care that you so grossly underestimate him, so i guess i shouldn't either. however, the fact that you refuse to drop the issue makes you as irritating to me as the splinter stuck in my foot.

listening to Hendrix sing Earl King's tune:
"Love is nice when it's understood

It's even nicer when you're feelin' good

You got me flippin' like a flag on a pole

Come on baby Let The Good Times Roll" yeah!

"first of all, joe, you have made quite a few annoying posts, most of these have been ignored."

that's right. whenever i have posted something that is just a comment relative to the current topic, it has been ignored. this is the same treatment afforded anyone who "wanders in" to this site.

"you should get a clue about posting condescending 'advice' to someone (who i assume you do not know,) in the public forum of something that belongs to him."

this is really interesting. this "public forum" is just that. a web site that poses the question "what are you doing?" appears to evoke DISCUSSION. that is all i'm trying to do,...have a discussion. however, this is a public forum that is really an "inside joke" for a select few.

"questioning the lives of others, especially those of which you have only seen a glimpse, is arrogant not to mention lame."

bottom line,...you do it to me every time i post.

and now,...agatha. i'm really happy that you have an up close and personal relationship with mark. it must be wonderful to know and understand him as you do. i saw in him someone very much like myself and i wanted to get to know him. unfortunately, i had to deal instead with all of you who want to protect him. are any of you musicians? he never has to defend himself. he has all of you to do that for him. that's fine. i don't dislike mark. i just wanted to establish a dialogue.

Mark establishes a dialogue with whomever he chooses, and it appears that he does not choose you.

Joe, quit yer bellyachin, claim a chair at the table, start posting, and if you've got something interesting to say, it will get responded to.

WONDERING WHAT'S MAKING BUSH "ANGRY" TODAY

CONCERNED

looking at a picture of Heath Ledger on Yahoo! and thinking that he looks like the lovechild of Val Kilmer and Ben Affleck.

just got back from my last joint departmental staff meeting ever. I kept my joint and am having it framed.

Watching Monk on USA

fuck, man, it's, like friday and shit.

and i'm sitting at home watching "sex in the city." i was all set to raise hell tonight and everyone's feeling lazy and wants to stay at home and sleep or something. last weekend i was recovering from my er visit and everyone mercilessly went out and raised hell without me. and now...i see how it is.

maybe i'll go cruise in one of those "no cruising" zones and see what happens.

even e is being lazy. "i'm too tired," he says. "i want to sleep...we can do something tommorrow..."

WHAT IF TOMMORROW NEVER COMES?

I spoke to two boys last night.

what to do, what to do.

"and the rains
came"

wondering which song . . . oh, just remembered where those lyrics were heard - a song titled "912 Green street" about a night in New Orleans. . and the rains are pouring down right now here. . . could be serious repercussions for this city if the storm hits in just a certain way.

http://www.firesigntheatre.com

Goodbye Boy #1.

trying out emoticons from the right side instead of the left .



(-;

hello, "=". what's you're take on 'monk'? i've watched the whole "season" over the summer and enjoyed it. i'm interested in another opinion.

mel, thanx for your post on 9/19. i know that kiwi's are the nicest people on earth. i hope that one day i can visit your beautiful homeland and interact. i know it will be a turning point in my life.

Joe, are you being serious or sarcastic?

Cause if you're being serious that was kind of a creepy thing to say, and if you're being sarcastic, well I've just made a big dick out of myself....

Tripping out!

Looking at all of these clips from "That's My Bush!"

The DUBBYATHON air on November 2nd .. all 8 episodes. . .

http://mybush.org/video.shtml

"It's nice to be free"

Where's Neil YOung?
btw:
His song regarding 911 titled "Let's Roll" is quite heavy.

http://mybush.org/video.shtml

wondering why it hurts so much this time.

everything always hurts worse the second time round.

usually because you forgot how painful it was the first.

drinking green tea instead of coffee. Let's see how long this lasts.

grumpy about how the weekend went.

drinking "glorious morning" smoothie by odwalla, because it was on sale.

i can see why, now.

about to cruise off on BART to enjoy the splendors of another day.

translating
"my asshole has been sweating for a long time already"

I love green tea -- it just tastes so clean.

Unfortunately, I'm drinking Snapple diet peach iced tea at the moment -- it tastes like it's been in the trunk of my car for two months.

Oh.

advising Spider to try Numi� Monkey King Jasmine green tea if she hasn't already.

watching the stock market and being pissed off and confused.
"Bush is an idiot! this fu**ing acK ack Iraq attack is his personal thing 'cause he personally doesn't want to be thrown out of office. , the let down of a stupid war with a let down of a low economy that is even lower with money being thrown at the stupid war.

Saddam is the one that's keeping that country from having an Ayotollah type government.


no body had it the slighest bit on their minds until he came up with it.

and what about . . . Elliot Cohen . . you can guess what his agenda is"

wondering why "professional ass coverer" was added to her job description

grooving to the new features of the sorabji front page. . . dig the m.t. comments. .. .
pass me those ice cubes and pour some electricity over them, por favor.

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laughing and in a state of being a very afraid at the same time when you consider who is at the helm:

http://www3.sympatico.ca/ecritoire/bush1.jpg

that's funny as hell, Patrick. Sure it wasn't doctored though? Also, is that the photo op taken right before he got word of last year's unpleasantness?

Watching the NYSE.
Opened at 7,871.23
Dropped 189.02
closed at 7,683.13

Phew. The terror alert has been lowered from orange to yellow. Now maybe I can get some sleep.

is also digging Mark's new homepage. The Roland piano and the Chasins piece both sound really nice Mark. Never heard of Chasins -- American? I've also got a Roland digital with 88 weighted keys, can't remember model #, and I use headphones with it (it's a good apartment piano). I've got speakers too, but it's a little disconcerting using them, because there seems to be the slightest delay between what you're playing and what you hear. I'm going to buy an upright for the house and sell the Roland soon.

Also, I hope Mark keeps up his daily missive. The fillout form that does nothing is hysterical. And Operator is my favorite Jim Croce song.

recalling my dream of witnessing an aurora borealis from LA.

then waking to my wife saying to me "i met the little one in a dream"

"not now, lights, sleep." i said pressing myself against her and falling back asleep in her neck.


why the fuck am i here in this place?

which place -- LA? Sorabji.com? Verge of being a father?

advising

work dougie. why am i at work, when i left that.

very, very buzzed. (And the department payed for it) Not quite drunk. Maybe later. A weekend that starts on Wednesday night.

Nice.

listening to Brubeck's 'Take Five' for the gazillionth time in my life and still bobbing my head.

Just came back from shopping. $300 worth of vouchers for selling 500 cc's worth of ads.

New shoes ($170), new ring ($30)

$50 voucher left, and some change : )

buy something for me. I'm cute and I deserve it.

Thinking about the anthrax mailer who proved to be a scientist with CIA ties working on counter measures to defend U.S. against "foreign" biological attack.
The FBI profilers theorized that this bio terror counter measures expert was doing what he thought was a patriotic act by showing how vulnerable U.S. was to foreign biological attack through mail in order to increase funding for the work he was engaged in. i.e: BioTerror Counter-measures. There was a 90minute BBC/Frontline documentary broadcast on PBS 2 weeks ago tonight that made the case for this. The suspect list had been narrowed down to just two people . . . both scientists working at the U.S. bio-terror countermeasure center located at Fort Detrick, Maryland. When the FBI requested samples of handwritten documents by both of these men, who were the only two suspects, in order to nail the culprit, the FBI was suddenly faced with a brick wall that stymied their investigation. The request for the handwriting samples was declined by the CIA in the interest of "National Security."

Sunshine on my nutsack, makes me happy,

Sunshine on my nutsack,
can make me cry

Sunshine on my nutsack, looks so lovely

Sunshine almost all the time makes me high

What if the hokey pokey really is what it's all about?

That made my day, J! Thanks

expressing worry.

Hey Moonit...i heard you had a quake over there...somewhere, 6.4 right?

If you'll entertain my lack of knowledge of your local geography for a moment, id like to ensure you're ok.





Im also hoping nate's woods are not on fire.

The fire here is out of control. The place reaks like a fucking chimney. The sunsets are apocolyptic looking.

We be needin some motherfuckin rain and shit.

rained out of the field.

looking at resumes for
an intern position.

excited.


going to a Dodger game tonight.

you ASSHOLE. You fucked up little rotten Asshole.

sometimes I just want to scream at you. I hate you and I love you and you're a piece of lying Shit.

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

LOVE ME MORE.

I'm not satisfied. I want everything, and I don't get it and I FREAK. love me more! put me first! Keep your Promises.

mean what you say, but only say when you mean if it's what I want to hear.

I hate loving you so much when you don't love me in equal measure.

someone grant my wishes.

I love you more than you'll ever know Gee,call your mom.

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Patrick - we had an earthquake?

I must of missed the news - and noone mentioned it to me.

Then again I've a bit a little fucked up all week.

WELLINGTON, New Zealand (AP) - A strong earthquake ( news - web sites) struck east of New Zealand on Wednesday, but caused no injuries or damage.



The Institute of Geological and Nuclear Sciences said the quake of magnitude 6.3 struck at 1:31 a.m. and was centered 331 miles from the North Island's east coast 318 miles below sea level.

Some 14,000 quakes are recorded in and around New Zealand each year, but on average only 100-150 are big enough to be felt by residents.

New Zealand sits astride the boundary of the Pacific and Australian tectonic plates, which grind against each other on the earth's crust, creating much of the country's earthquake and volcanic activity.

thank you, J. you're the sweetest girl.


where's my purpose?

Oh we did. Probably wouldn't of been felt down here in Christchurch anyway.

Gee, I hope you are doing okay.

J, That was such a nice post to Gee. I had a *J* moment today. I was walking home and tripped over my shoes. I didn't fall but I squished my toe into the front of my shoe. Now, I have a fairly high tolerance for pain, but this HURT. And the pain kind of shot into the rest of my foot. I thought I'd just kind of limp home but I had to sit down and take my shoe off. Then I started thinking about the lost toe story and then, well I was in J-mode. I laughed the whole time I was sitting there recalling some classic J posts of the last two months.

My toe is much better now.

wallowing in all the new content

I'm wishing I could give Gee and Kazoo a big hug:)

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Meeting Grandmother in 3.5 hours ARGH

Me too, J.

mel, i'm not sure why my initial response to your post of 22 september didn't appear. the bottom line is, i have devoted a lot of time to the study of new zealand and it's people. i think that it's a wonderful place and that kiwi's are wonderful people. i would like to travel there someday. why is that creepy if i'm serious? why would you be relieved if was kidding?

if I was kidding? oh, well.

Remember I posted about the police comeing here with a warrant for Ryan? It was right after I got home from WV and I had a bad cold and my s/o was in the hospital,it was about 3 in the morning when finally the phone woke me up and it was the Chandler police telling me to go open my front door,which I did and the cops where all pissed off cause apparently they had been trying to wake me up for a long time.They told me that they had been at my front door and then they went to my front yard to discuss what to do and when they tried to go to my door again the gate was locked and they had to climb over it,that just didn't register with me at 3 a.m. and on medication,but I did look around here and I didn't find him and I told them he wasn't here.I found out later that he was but I didn't know that at the time or God knows I would have told them as I am sick of being a prisnor in my own house.I went to get out of my room and had to go back in there to get the key to let myself out to answer the door.Anyway two weeks after that we had a "neighborhood speacialist" from the Chandler Police department come here and tell us we had a zoneing violation because our storage shed my husband had just built and lost a toe over I might add shared a common wall even though he asked our neighbors permission first so I knew it was one of the cops that had reported this,I went to the police station,paid them five bucks and found out I was right.So we took about half the storage shed,it was no longer sharing a common wall and I thought that would be the end of it,but no we had to turn in plans to the city who had no problem with it and they told me the police department was the ones that had a problem with it.This all started back in May and the "case" is under investigation,what a crock of shit,seriously.

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I'm an emotional wreck.

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you know, mark, it's incredible that you talk about the "rigors" of recording on the same day that i went into the studio for the first time in years. i'm producing an album for the lead soprano in my choir and she has never heard her own voice on tape let alone worked in a recording studio. all of a sudden, she hears "things" in her voice that she never heard before. she hates her own voice. she thinks everything we've recorded sucks. i have to calm her and explain that in live performance, "things" go by and are promptly forgotten. when you try to do something permanent, like a recording, you start hearing all the little flaws,...except that a lot of those "flaws" are not noticed by the average listener. sometimes, the best "take" in a recording session is the one that is most visceral(?) rather than the most technically perfect.

look, mark, i enjoy listening to your piano performances, please give us the peformances with emotion even if they are not technically perfect.

sick of looking at Joe's nonsense

Wondering why Patrick finds Joe's "nonsense" so captivating....

wishing for more rain.

after months and months without, we finally got some much needed rain this weekend.

what is particularly notable is the effect it has on the people as much as it does everything else.

The roads get 5 months of crud washed off, plants glisten...refurbishing their brown with green in just a matter of days. The air becomes crips. You can literally see the crud washed away by noticing the black on your windowsill after a rain. In general after it rains in LA, considering the fires and smoke as of late...humans sigh, relish and relax.

As did we, saturday night. We watched a scary movie based on true evetns (those are the best eh?) called The Mothman Prophecies. We watched it with our patio door open despite the chill it let in just so we could hear the splatter of rain in the courtyard.

We never made it all the way through the movie. We had worked all day Sat and were exhausted but part of me also thinks she and i we're just excited to go to bed with rain gently tapping on the ceiling and the occasional "swoooooooshhhhhhhhh" of a car driving by.

I miss the rain. And the "swooooooshhhh." I had forgetten that sound. I just washed my car today, which usually makes it rain, but it's hot and sunny without a cloud in the sky. I vacuumed the inside, too, and wiped down all the plastic/rubber bits. I used to keep my car cleaner than I do now. But it's still pretty clean, I guess, compared to some people.

In my car:
glove compartment:
registration, insurance, hint mints, peach smints, tylenol for all the people that get headaches riding in my car for some reason, spare D batteries, valve caps, tape cases (sem's tape and another one), change for meters. I think that's it. I might have to go check.
In the drink holders:
dried roses. lots and lots of them.
Rolling around under my seat:
super mongo gargantuan flashlight. both for lighting and beating purposes.
That's pretty much it. Those little mats. And then the spare tire and all that rot in the back.

I'm so tired. Bleh. Riding BART today crunched into the back of an east indian businessmen, I started looking around at the other passengers and trying to figure out who got some last night. These east bay folks are pretty tight with their emotions, I guess. There were a couple, maybe two or three, who had that hint of self satisfied smirk, but that was it. Maybe that was it in general. Maybe no one in the East Bay gets any. That would be sad.

remebering when it would rain at my grandmother's house.
She had a tin roof and it made an awesome sound when we had down poors